Yesterday I decided that we should start following our new schedule for the fall. I needed to rearrange things so that the schedule accounted for taking F to and from school and added in some specific things that have been missing, including time with W doing the things I did with the others at that age.
So after a rough day on Monday when I was short tempered and had sinus pressure all day and an unusual day of Tuesday since we had to take W to UVA for a follow-up check-up for his infant pancreatic issue (just something we do every six months), I decided to change the schedule.
What was I thinking?!!
Actually it went pretty well until about lunch time. Then F did something he shouldn’t have and proceeded to have multiple melt-downs until after lunch. The first one? was a guilty conscience but the subsequent one over the fact that I (thinking they would enjoy it) cut out their sandwiches with cookie cutters. Su and W were delighted, but I think it was one to many different things for F. He really needs things to be predictable or at least explained ahead of time (first we’re going to do this, then this and so on) and I hadn’t really done that yesterday, beyond explaining that we were going to start our new schedule.
The other thing I realized yesterday is that he often says “No” when he means “I don’t like this.” or “I don’t understand.” or ” This isn’t fitting into the set of rules by which I understand the world.” Sometimes “No” is just arguing, but often it’s not and we all (but especially me and Su) react to it like arguing. I think I really need to start working with him on more appropriate word sets instead of “No” which is easy but confusing to the rest of us!
I have so much to do in the next few weeks it’s ridiculous. Between switching our schedule, getting him started in school, and getting ready for L’s (S’s sister) wedding in which the two big children each have a part and which will take us from home for about a week. Add to that that I’ve got some kind of weird thing going on myself (vision problems, mood swings, random dizziness) and I’m not sure how it’s all going to get done!
But His grace is sufficient and I need to remember that. Always. Sufficient and overflowing if I let it be. I think I need to write a new verse on the whiteboard:
9And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.? (2 Cor. 12:9)
I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me. (Phil. 4:13)